Wednesday, October 2, 2013
This month for insecure writer's support group, I realized I had a big topic, a huge, colossal, giant of an insecurity/problem that I could share.
I feel overwhelmed.
My novel revision feels like it's gone off the tracks, and I need a crane or maybe a wrecking ball to fix it.
My journal entry yesterday consisted of stuff like this: I managed to make four phone calls, fold laundry, grade three assignments, plan half of a lesson, and write four e-mails, but I still have four phone calls, three loads of laundry, 25 assignments to grade, 2 and 1/2 lessons to plan, and multiple e-mails just waiting for me.
My husband is sick with the flu, and my kids and I are too. Plus, my hypothyroid medicine isn't working right, and I meet with the doctor tomorrow to figure it out, and tomorrow just isn't coming soon enough.
I've been forgetting things.
I've been losing things. (like my mind, maybe?)
In short, I feel overwhelmed.
On Monday, I started making lists. On Tuesday, my list felt ginormous. It's Wednesday, and today's list doesn't seem smaller.
However, the lists help. It seems like the only thing I can do to manage the mountain of stuff that needs to get done. And I need to manage it so I have time to write, even if my second novel currently needs a wrecking ball.
So, have you ever felt overwhelmed? Ever felt the need for a wall sized list? Or the need for a wrecking ball revision experience?
Many thanks to Alex J. Cavanaugh for starting IWSG, and encouraging writers everywhere!