Tuesday, February 12, 2019

Snow Days and Determination

This last week has been snowy. (We had a final total of 9.5 inches at our house before it turned to rain.)
View Down our Gravel Driveway

Walking on Day 3

Foolish Adventures in Driving on Day 5 - getting slightly stuck in front of my parent's house after dropping them off.

The deck.

Under the trees in our backyard, it wasn't so deep.

I've had a few new worries on the health side of my life. A few medical tests down, a few more to come, and some answers, but not all the answers. The waiting and the in-between moments are the worst for me, when my imagination goes wild in the wrong way.

Last week on Wednesday, I basically shut down and just worried all day - I didn't get a single bit of anything done - not for IWSG, not for teaching, not for writing, not anything. It was just a worry day. I think I did my steps, but that's it. I breathed. I walked. I worried. I pet the cat and dog. I didn't even realize it was Wednesday or IWSG day or anything. It was a day of personal storm.

It wasn't a good day. But, I had to get through it. I had to find my way out of the other side with prayer, some journal writing filled with exclamation points, and a bit of music and movement (not happy dancing, but dancing that helped me get through the mood).

I know I can be healthy - physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. But, my health isn't going to look like everyone else's health. I have physical illnesses and potential physical illnesses which are life-long. Some of them are inherited. Some just are. I have to live with them, but I don't have to let them own me.

I may have Hashimoto's Disease, Meniere's Disease, SIBO (current, but I'm killing it with a special diet), and a handful of other issues (undergoing tests, etc), but they don't own me. I refuse to let them define me.

I am an author. I am a mom. I am a wife. I am a teacher. I am a Child of God.

I am a dancer (not a good one, but a dance around the house one). I am a singer. I am a reader. I am a walker. I have been and will be again a skier and bicyclist.

I am not giving up. I am embracing a future of hope and promise.

What do you do when you are snowed in? (Literally or Figuratively)?

BTW - Come Back on Valentine's Day for a Guest Post from Nick Wilford!


Laurel Garver said...

Sorry to hear that health concerns are weighing so heavy on you. Praying for your peace of mind in the midst of uncertainty.

Snow days are great for picking up the phone and reconnecting with others I know are also snowed in! And of course, reading and binge watching Netflix.

Tyrean Martinson said...

Thanks for your prayers, Laurel!
And yes, I've been reading a lot!

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

And God is greater and stronger than all of those things! With His spirit in you, you are stronger.
That's a cool amount of snow!

Tyrean Martinson said...

Amen! Thanks for the reminder, Alex!

CWMartin said...

It always amazes me how many people who exercise in the blogosphere have otherwise debilitating conditions. God never gives us anything for just one reason- so too this gift.

Mark Noce said...

Looks a little cold ;) We have snow in the mountains, so we can go visit it, then return to the coast:)

krystal jane said...

It's definitely wrong when something is off balance in your body and you can't figure out what it is. But it totally doesn't own you. It's something you have to deal with, but you can. Hope you have all the answers soon!

Also, so jealous of that snow!! So many people are posting snow pictures, and it's 50 degrees where I am! This is why I love the internet. I see all the snow and dream. :)

Hilary Melton-Butcher said...

Hi Tyrean - we all have days like that, but not perhaps with your type of health issues ... stay as positive as you can, and always doing the best for you - that's the important bit ... other things will take care of themselves - I hope! But the snow - looks wonderful ... yet so challenging to get around - I'm glad you were able to get out of the yard. All the very best - cheers Hilary

L. Diane Wolfe said...

Hold on to Him and keep that great attitude.

Such pretty snow pictures.

Madeline Mora-Summonte said...

Hang in there, Tyrean. Sending good thoughts and prayers your way....

That picture of your driveway is amazing! And just how I like to see snow - in a photo. :)

Heather R. Holden said...

*hugs* So, so sorry you have so many health issues to worry about. Know how draining that kind of stress can be. Such things definitely shouldn't own or define you, so I'm glad you're refusing to let them. <3

And those photos...wow. I've never seen snow in person, so I'm completely in awe right now!

Patricia Lynne aka Patricia Josephine said...

I've been there, done that with waiting on answers for tests. It never gets easy. I hope you get answers because I've been through it and not gotten answers and that is the worst. =\

Beautiful pictures.